Last Friday of the year

Yeah this is the last Friday and it don't hurt that it is a pay day. I am going to see my son Brandon this weekend. I'm closing out the year with nothing but him, I am not hanging out, not going to a club, not getting fucked up. Just going to Chucky Cheese and hanging with the little man. I know this might go without saying to whoever reads this but I love my son. Its important to me to let him know that I love him, so he is stuck with his old man for new years eve. I tell most people that me and his mother have a really good relationship and as far as it goes it is better than most but damn. I wish she didn't fucking hate me (whatever happened to those guys who sung that song, I love them dudes) but that is where we are now. I called to talk to him Wedenday night and he was asleep becasue he was sick, and she and I actually had a civil conversation. I never knew she had alergy problems and now it seems that Brandon has those problems too. Me I'm built like a fucking tank so I dont have shit but tattoos and scars. Any way she only made one shitty comment that I just pretended not to hear. But with that conversation something dawned on me. I know that people respond differently to their parents behavior some people become hardened and some people become soft. CN is a combination of both. She became pregnant with our son her Sr. year in school she took 19 hours had a 3.6 gpa for that semester and she worked a full time job (40 hours) and at night she would go and work at a hospital to get experience for her field. But that being said, I think she is taking out her bad relationship with her father out on me. Yes, I was still going out partying while she was pregnant. (I was in School and I had a 3.6 overall GPA and I was a bartender so I made a living being at the party) And if you ever read the previous post where I wrote a letter to Brandon you understand that I told her when she told me she was having him "We are not going to be together we are just having a child together" Now I know that makes me seem like a shit, but I was doing what nobody else does in that situation I was telling her the turth that's right not selling her a load of crap like "ooohhh baby lets stay together" and while you are not looking I'm gonna go fuck eveything in the state. I loved her as a person and yeah it got physical but there were no dinner dates only a trip to the movies a few times this was just a person I was having sex with. That is not what you build a relationship on trust me one day I will write the MAA Adventures or the Sharika Tales, One bitch took me to court the other wrote my mom telling her that I made her move out of the state and never give her address to me. But Brandon came along and I knew what love is, he helped me grow up. I dont hold a grudge I still got love for you. See you when I get home. Yeah I think I will start to talk more about my personal life and add that with my views I just read this and it is funny as hell to me.

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Christmas 2005

It is really hard to get in the Christmas mood when I am sitting here with the patio door open and I have on a t-shirt and some basketball shorts. I am also enjoying the greatest Christmas movie ever Coming to America. That Eddie Murphy has a future. I have made up my mind that after last night that I am not going to any clubs unless I am shit faced. I really don't have a good time unless I can't remember what happened the night before and I feel sick as shit the next day. Merry Christmas and if anyone knows where a good party is tonight let me know.

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A

I sit next to this girl at work named A, I usually dont go for the blonde cheerleader type but this girl is hot as shit. I remember when I first started working here I caught myself staring at here thinking about how I wanted to take her home and fuck her from behind until she passed out. This is one of those chicks that looks innocent at one glance and like a freak on E locked in a bedroom on the next glance. I bet every guy she has been with never took the time to just focus on making her cum over and over. I bet she gets frustrated and has to rub her own clit to bust a nut. I would pull her hair and grab her ass until all she felt all over her body was good and fuck her non stop until she passed out, then I would go make dinner. I thought once about asking her to have a threesome with me and my girl but I bet she is not like that, not that she might not do it but I bet she likes to be the only one getting attention. I am not going to ever act on this but I can't help where my thoughts travel sometime.

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BLOGS

First I have to start with http://www.marcuswillis.com/blog/ it is the blog of my favorite web designer The Mighty Marc Will. Marc is possible one of the smartest people I know. Its funny that is pretty fucking sad. Check his blog out he isn't as cool as he use to because he has a job now and has to get up and go to work and pass piss test and all that shit. But check his shit out it is funny that liquid condom was amazing I got to get one of those.
I have read every thing this guy in a three day period. He is a modern day Casanova and fuck that bitch ass movie that is out, with the guy who was just left Brokeback Mountain. The guy's name is Tucker Max and all he talks about is alcohol, himself, and the sex you wish you were having. Tucker Puts you in an interesting position, if you even dare put your sexual exploits against his you are sure to hear about how he has not only been with more women than you, but done much more GOD awful things to her and had sex with her best friends seconds later. Having read his blog I am inspired to take personal notes and chronicle some of my drunken nights. But the thing that is really amazing about www.tuckermax.com is that this guy is smart and amazingly well read. His reading list is also on his site and it is very impressive. As a proud alcoholic I wish he was my best friend but I am happy to admire his work from a safe distance. I assure you Tucker is in a class all by himself. I give this blog five shots and a beer, my highest rating.
Reading TuckerMax lead me to another blog called http://www.ifuckedtuckermax.com/. (crazy right) I have only read a few post but It looks really good. The Story of the famous Tattoo Girl is off the hook by itself, but you can tell she is boarderline sweetheart and serial killer. I advise anyone if you want to read someone who is painfully honest and very happy in her own skin check this site out asap.

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When I retire

This is song I wrote and I sent to my boy mark he makes beats I am gonna put it out on the apple broadcast i just want to get exposure for artist from my neck of the woods hopefully it does well


opens a cappella (LL COOL J)
Slaughering MC"s and I'm a never get Whipped
When I retire I'm be worshiped like an old
battleship. --Chorus--(repete 2x this line only)
Beat comes in
Chorus (3x)

Like a Pimp I'm poignant, proactive and to the point
when it comes to pushing puss/
up and down the aisles, searching for a real nigga
look/
I stich passion into the fibers of every line in every
verse/
with my tounge I push against the pain cuz i love that
it hurts/
disiple of the truth/
so I spit it in the booth/
live it in the coup/
preach it on the stoop/
and scream it from the roof/
I'm from the bottom of nowhere/
but I will make you muthafuckas care/
I'll never give a fuck if i get a million sold/
as long as I move a million muthafucking souls/
So for me it's not chips or whips and them fake ass
hoes/

CHROUS (3x)
My tounge is a chisal and this composition is
sculpture/
I take my time and go through every rhymes/
so it can't be picked apart by vultures/
Some people fear that I talk this way/
Some people come near some run away/
Bullshit niggas get played every fucking day/
So it's time yall heard what a real fucking man has
to say/
I will not bend or break to say whats fake/
repping every nigga from my state/
Yall don't understand the shit your being fed/
gets inside your head/
and make you believe the shit they said/
So im going to take it back/
so before what happens to blues and jazz happens to
rap/

Chorus
Give me bullshit nigga and Ill sell shrooms/
Give me weak shit nigga and they going 5 for 2/
your an absentee father whoes son has become a man/
so when i take the game I hope you understand/
pop corn shit only last awile/
the game needs a real meal for it to survive/
my folks dont need another nigga tell em what they
aint got /
how they man aint shit/
and how my wife saw your range and sucked your dick/
ima breath and hope in the lives your lines destroyed/

give jobs to as many as i can to those you left
unemployed/
my idol aint a fake dope boy its eldridge and huey/
so go that way with that fake shit cuz you cant do me/
I dont sing to get rich/
dont suck no dick/
Rather die for what i believe than be somebody's
bitch/

Chorus

©2005 YoungBreezy.com

SOS

I have some things about the flooding and damage
that occurred NOT ONLY IN NEW ORLEANS but in
Mississippi and Alabama. My first gripe is with those
who claim they are from the so called hood and derive
all their credibility from doing so and make large
sums of money from their affiliation with those of
lower economic backgrounds; where are they?
Hip-hop artist and ball players, I have seen first hand entertainers spending what it takes many an entire
pay period to earn in night club or sporting event.
There are those like David Banner, Cash Money, Warrick Dunn,
Brett Favre who are doing everything I feel in
their power to help as much as they can but where are the
majority of those that buy half million cars and
jewelry. Now when thousands of our people are homeless
and hungry you don't see them coming to their aid.
I saw Kanye West's comment, and I agree to a certain
extent, but I understand that you cannot judge any
man or woman by what they say when they are upset, but by
all of that person's actions. I hope those
comments were made honestly and not because of the timing of
his album release. I see that George Bush is a man
doing what all men do looking out for those who
put them in the position they now hold.
This is an opportunity for everyone to really look at those
who are running this country and ask yourself: does the
person I elected have my best interest at heart?
Because it really doesn't matter how much money you
think you have. Less than 3% the United States
population make more than $100,000 a year. Just because there was a flood in Louisiana there could
very well be a earthquake California or a blizzard in
New York or Detroit, and we could be trying to
save those "refugees". It is a wake up call for us to
stop electing those who really don't have the best interest
of the all of the citizens regardless of background and financial status. Stop being ignorant to the
election process and the government itself , stop letting people who really don't care about you
care for you. Alan Greenspan is about to retire the
President elects his replacement, there are two
seats open on the Supreme Court and the President
already has nominated individuals who HE feels are suitable
for those seats. Who do you feel the economy and
the laws of this nation will be set up to protect.
There is nothing to protect you from the forces of nature
but you do have a say in who will be there to help
you if needed. GOD bless to everyone I'm sorry if I
have not had time to call everybody I know in that area but I have been working at Reliant Stadium and with the Red Cross. I pray
for everyone from there and everyone who has family out there we have to make decisions about what are we going to do about how things are.

©2005 YoungBreezy.com

Hello Brandon

Today is May 14th I called you today and you said that I was saying bad things to your mom and the last time we spoke you told me I was not sending enough money home. I am amazed that these things are coming from a three year old. I also think that since the amount of money I sent home was never an issue before you probably have someone telling you to say these things. Brandon I love only GOD more than I love you I have always tried to not only make sure you were happy and well provided for but also I am working to make sure you don't grow up broke like your father did. I honestly moved to Houston because I thought I could come here and make a better life for you and me. But to be absolutely honest I think I also came out here to get away from your mom. I at one time was attracted to your mom but nothing more. I never loved your mom at all Brandon, she was just a girl I hooked up with in college. I admired her and I still think she is strong and beautiful but I have never wanted more than a physical relationship. Your uncle Tony told me that never assume the woman is on the same page as you are always tell her straight up. That was my mistake I should have told her that I was seeing other people. When she became pregnant I never wanted her to get an abortion (She never wanted to have one either) I was very firm when I told her that we are not together we are heaving a child together and I will always make sure that I always did everything in my power for the baby. I knew you were going to be a great child I was so happy when she called me and said you were a boy. I still have your ultrasound picture. Having said all that, when I first came out here I thought that it would be easy for me to find a job because it always has been. But it wasn't It took me four months to get a job of any kind and I didn't realize how much money I would spend in gas traveling all over the city and simply parking. I lost my car and the job I did have at that point in time I could not keep b/c it required me to have a car. So here I am in an expensive apartment with 8 months left on the rent. AND again no car and broke, I didn't know what to do so I just started taking the bus all over the city I wish I would have kept track of how many applications I filled out and how many times I would hear no. Every time I was paid I would always send home money to you I never told her no but if I didn't have anything what could I do. At this point she started telling me that she was going to file child support. We would make arrangements and I whenever I was not able to get the money in a timely fashion. She would explode and then we would have these really bad arguments, I am sorry for everytime your mother and I yelled in front of you. We both want the very best for you we get very frustrated with each other when we can't get it. I am sorry for every time your cried Brandon and everyone knows that I do everything I can for you son. I know it is hard now but daddy is working hard and I promise it will be better. I am writing this because when mommy is mad at me I think she tells you bad things about me. I think she says stuff to make you feel like I don't care about you. One day Brandon when you are older you will see that sometimes people use others to make them feel bad. We will be together one day son she can't take the love out of my heart no matter what she does. Please son don't forget that your daddy is always here for you.

©2005 YoungBreezy.com

Stella

My mother is very sick she has diabetes and right now she is in a hospital with fluid on her heart, the other day she told me that she was feeling so bad she didn't lock her door because she didn't want them to have to break it down if they had too. I don't know how to feel, I wish I did. I love my mother this is too difficult to put into words. I just dont think she always had my best interest at heart as a child. She is the typical nosey lady in any neighborhood. I feel that she is more concerned with the issues of other people than her own. And because of that she is in her late fifties and she has not accumulated anything of financial worth. That is sad I don't care how you look at it. Irespect my mother I guess if I was a better son she would have more than she has. I feel that all three of us have failed her none of her sons can take care of her we cant even help with her bills its sad.

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Feb 22

I heard on Fox news last night, (yes I watch fox news) about the murder of a 13 year old boy in L.A. He was joy riding and not going into every detail but he was shot and killed by the police. The most surprising thing about this story is that you don't really hear anything about this it's like it's being swept under the rug. The first I heard about this story I was watching the factor. From there I went to the LA Times website and from there to the NPR site. It was interesting to see the contrast in the different stories, not about the details but the perspectives of those they interviewed about their reaction. Some were not so surprisingly outraged this is a baby 13 all you know at thirteen is that you don't know poop. But some people were talking about the kid had starting hanging out with a bad crowd. One so called community activist said he was not in a gang but he was embracing the gang culture. I hate to say this but why is this happening to the country when we don't allow our kids to mess up and learn. Marlon Brando ran with a rough crowd as a kid so did Steve McQueen. I guess you never heard of Frank Sinatra. I am a father I work every day I am a college graduate and as a kid my friends committed every crime you can imagine. The first time something like this where mistakes that you learn from were used in this stupid way that stuck out to me was when The President was going to appoint this guy to a position, it came out that they guy had a maid that didn't have a green card or something, that okay I admit is not very smart but the media kept putting it out there that this guy had filed bankruptcy when he was in his thirties he was a loser and what not. Ab Lincoln filed for bank rupsey several times so has Donald Trump so do most business men for that America the country is in debt up to its eye balls. I feel that a person who walks his own path is exactly what America is all about it gives you the opportunity to make a mistake and learn from it then it allows you to grow. Anyway back to the shooting lets just say this is an adult, this is a grown man a drunk driver in a stolen car. You would shoot at this person 6 times, that worries me. Because I have a son, and I know my son will make mistakes. I just hope that he does so way away from LA county. I just like every parent love my child, and what ever cop I feel unfairly hurts my child will be hurt by me. By any means necessary.

©2005 YoungBreezy.com

Monday

I got a padnah named Joe Martin that I really feel is one of the best rappers in the south. He does not have a major deal or anything but he goes under the moniker SkiPP CooN. He is in Jackson, MS and he is on a local label. He is very loyal to this label and I keep telling him that with the way rap music is today, you gotta be everywhere and start your own buzz. We are having a over the internet freestyle battle here it is for your viewing pleasure:
SC
> new tennis and tees> fresh buckets of sleeze> you the best here as soon as I leave> don't get mad if you find my hat and keys > common home from work early with yah heart on ya> sleeve> ya old lady wanna wrap her arms around my chubby> body> and squeeze> cause IM sexxy fat and I do as I please> ya girl a people person playa she aims to please> and I didn't have to ask her twice for her to get on> her> needs and wants we disscused buddy ease on up> come to cups and talk about it the tea and muffins> on> us> no need to have an altercation or generate some> hatin> by making a fuss> cause honestly playa we got a couple things to> discuss> so stop the threating us > we didn't do it on purpose> god made us priceless and deemed you worthless> IM just providing a service> its a luxury you know the world deserves this

Young Breezy:> > Young breeze nigga pleeze > when i step to the plate > from the day my eyes saw sunshine I knew I was great> > hoes beg me to fuck and tell you to wait > new tims fresh rims with no release date > born in the 601 from the bottom of the state > you sting or puffy I see u watching every move I> make > me I live between bars why most niggas stay behind> them > and behind them is some niggah trying to grind them > ambassador of the swac on any soil I stand > and every bitch that blew me swears IM her man> so if you see my pic scatttered throught the room > while you got you naked head in some bitch womb > she is just a fan you and you are a wanna be > so please inprove your motor skills > cause you just not moving me.> Sip hop nigga >

SC:you aint a thug you a chatterboxhigh yellow looking like you got your skin from thewig off goldyloxskipp coon swac goon buddy i aint neva sked50 choppershots make the hardest gangsta chickenheadyou dont wanna talk breadlook buddy ill push dome back like you a container ofpezill take you off the tube like joe claire or big lezskipp saysyou dont wanna go to war playerim hard rock like slayeryou fake fag like nelsonso please for future conversations beware im meltingkeyboards inkpens or anything plasticget your ass kicked get put in a casketill stomp you into a fetal position abort you thenkill your father so he cant create another rat bastard

YB:I got more hoes holding their breath than you know breathing
thats right I'm the best in the room
cause when i enter you leaving
you so pop shall we say Cindy lauper with all your lines
cause i keep hearing the same thing time after time
keep expanding you waste band instead of your mind
talk about what you gonna do and i live for the grind
I only speak about what i did
And you so I know such and such with all your shit
Breeze nigga
11 and a 1/2 is the size of the in-print of these trees nigga
you so cute with your metaphores but I'm plain and simple
I rubber band wrap funds
always pack guns
at home in the presidential or your local slum
You too caught up in being seen and you need to work on being heard
All that killa talk from screech nigger to me its absurd
I'm the tightest non rapper with the flow you know
be quiet before i make niggas Skipp coon like Jim Crow

It is getting pretty heated he hasnt hit me back yet I think I faded him.

On a bad note I missed my son's birthday yesterday I was stuck out here and he is with his mom in Mississippi. He turned three Its hard but I hope he understands that I am doing this so we can have a better life. I love BJ (my son) it hurts when I can't do stuff. My uncle L's little girls funeral is in two days. I havent talked to him since she passed He is a worrior but that is something you dont wish on anyone. His only little girl I guess she was born to be an angel. Gonna be out of commission for a few days if anyone ever looks at this hope you dig my style.

©2005 YoungBreezy.com

damn

I just got a call from home, my uncle L's daughter died today. She was only a baby less than a year old. She has been in and out of the hospital since she was born. I guess you can find comfort in knowing that she is no longer suffering but I dont wish any parent to see their child die. I am not going to try and draw this out I guess i have no right saying that my day sucks my kid is still alive. I feel like shit I want to go home pray and shed tears. This is so fucked

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This is not a good day. Just leave it at that not a good day at all

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I work in a call center.

I'm sure at some point this was so unconventional, but now it is so normal for everyone in and fresh out of college to have one of these jobs. It's like a job you get when you say this is cool for right now and before you know it a whole ear has past. You see someone who use to work in the call center with you and they got fired for too-many points or going ape sh*t on a customer allot of the time they get fired for having sex with coworkers this is the place all the freaks in the club who don't strip hang out but anyway they have been fired for one of the reasons I mentioned and either 2 things happen 1. And this is the most common they began working at another call center where they get to wear jeans all the time and all the girls that work there are freaks or 2. They get their sh*t in order and start doing what they always talked about doing but didn't have the time off to do it. You are lured by the hourly pay and the relaxed environment until some dude comes out yelling at you because you were in the bathroom longer than you were allotted dumb ass shit. Everybody knows everybody's business so I learned a long time ago only talk about sports and American idol. Me I am still here by 8 and I stay until 5. But I got 4 points and summer will be here soon. Like my best friend always says sometime you gotta say fuck it.

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1st day

The company I work for is my business. I have a girlfriend who is 8 1/2 years younger than me. I have a son with another woman (only 2 years younger) that hates me most of the time. I love me this is all I got today. Ill keep u posted

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